It was dull outside. I heard the distant sounds of morning traffic. No
birds that I recall. Is it ever going to be summer? I fumble for my
phone. Morning tweets of atrocities going on in the world and
then...what?!...when did Sam Champion leave GMA? What the? How did I
miss that? My priorities are beyond screwed.
Anyway, it looks like it might rain but I don't take an umbrella because
I'm a rebel (but really it's because I just don't want to carry one
more thing).
I'm relaxed today--wearing jeans and a black shirt and my Converse
All-star basketball sneakers. I've said it just like that since I was
10. "I'm wearing my Converse All-star basketball sneakers" and that's
that! I also say things like "Stereophonic unit" but that's another
story.
I heard that Irish Mike died. We were probably around the same age.
Actually, he might have been younger but years of alcohol abuse made
that impossible to determine. I didn't know him well but in his more
lucid moments he was a seemingly nice guy, a helpful one and genuinely
liked by most who came in contact with him. He just couldn't get it
(sober) and maybe he never wanted to get it having lost his wife and
children in a bad accident years ago. It was more than sad but I can't
tell you in all honesty that I didn't expect it and it is a sad thing to
expect.
The thing is--no matter how bad it gets, I just don't want to let the
bad win. There are too many things in life that make it worth living.
Last night, as I walked home at dusk through Central Park, I was
surprised that there were not more people about to witness its splendor
and at the same time I felt it was a treat for me...having the park
almost all to myself. Still, serene and magical. I had no home. I had no
age. I just was.
Did I lose you? Fine. Back to comedy.
What I'm trying to say is that many times we think we know what's ahead
but we don't. Plans are ideas we try to set in motion and the "best laid
plans of mice and men" (there I go again).
Man, all I'm saying is that I want to be around to see it all...all the
possibilities. To take part in the conversation and mostly to laugh...
even and if mostly at myself.
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